words
Words mean things, use them responsibly.
Words mean things, use them responsibly.
This document outlines the key domains of my life that require ongoing attention and management. I use these areas to provide high-level context for my daily planning and tasks, and to ensure I'm distributing my energy in a way that supports my overall well-being and goals.
I'll review these areas regularly to assess where I'm at and what actions I need to take to maintain or improve each one.
Gender Affirmation & Mental Well-being: This area encompasses my journey as a trans woman (mtf), managing social anxiety, and fostering overall mental health.
Physical Health & Active Lifestyle: Focusing on my physical health, including diet, exercise, and reducing unhealthy habits.
Pet Care & Home Sanctuary: Responsibilities related to my dogs and axolotls, and maintaining a comfortable and organized living space.
Creative & Intellectual Pursuits: Actively engaging in my diverse creative interests and intellectual curiosities. This includes my aspirations for making YouTube videos, practicing guitar, knitting, and exploring movies, books, and anime.
Education & Future Career (PTA Program): Focusing on my upcoming Physical Therapist Assistant (PTA) school program, studying, and preparing for a new professional path.
Social Connection & Outreach: Actively working to overcome social anxiety, nurture meaningful connections with chosen friends and family, and engage with wider communities on my own terms.
Self-reflection note: These areas are dynamic and can evolve. The goal is not perfection, but conscious effort and alignment with my values. This document is a tool to help direct that energy productively.
Good afternoon, about to devour some scrambled eggs and toast.
Grandpa came over for cigs, I got Matthew some weed and my moms prescription.
In the interim between now and dance classes I should mess with knitting some more and maybe take a shower and a walk with the dogs.
I'll obviously read some of Nevada at the hall.
It's a pretty nice day weather-wise.
Damn, forgor I have a lot of laundry to do as well.
Just threw some laundry in and im eating chicken nuggets now, I just played elden ring.
Okay restructuring I should
I should also look into some systems for managing mostly self-directed things.
Today is a day, I seen yesterday advice to use my hands for things more that weren't scrolling the internet. That is a good idea. Maybe ill try knitting again.
Mom has work at 5, Matthew wants weed and has a angel appt and psychiatrist appt at 12:40.
Also I should finish Nevada.
I tried some knitting, for maybe 20 minutes, I could not get the caston correct for more than a few times in a row.
Also skipped matthews psychiatrist appointment as angel rescheduled to the same time.
Need to get kratom and weed later as well as groceries
Hello there computer, typing this from bed on my back.
I put a new battery and a sata ssd in a t530, it honestly feels fairly snappy and quiet.
The intention is to use it for school but it is quite comfy just in bed.
It doesn't really feel like my day. I slept fairly poorly.
Haven't really found myself knowing what to do since I don't have a lot going on. Everything self-directed just ends in me playing a lot of elden ring(and donut county, I beat that in a day with my bro and it was pretty cool).
I think I read somewhere about areas of focus or something, maybe I should look that? Maybe there are better self directed methods or maybe the idea of self directing itself is a meme and we are just flesh automatons, idk.
As a treat, some images of a liminal hallway in a sparsely populated office building.

Matthew had a seizure on the way to mall.
I made this website as a way to maybe sus out my essence and intentions if that makes any sense. Maybe as a way to hone my words as well. I tend to be careless with them and end up coming across as semi incoherent. I've blamed other people for not understanding me but maybe I just suck with words.
I played some elden ring this morning
Grandpa came over for cigarrettes yesterday. I cant even remember how many I bought. Probably like 4
I I I everything starts with I everything is my perspective. Fuck that kinda. I wish I could have a less glued in perspective.
Also it feels like gtd systems are for people who have forces acting upon them, I wish there were a self-directed version of that.
Idk fam, things are a little fuzzy now. We'll see how things go.
Second post.
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